I could have also gone with the title "I *HAD* never puked on a run before". Ugh.
|All smiles BEFORE the race|
Race day was a long day with a 7 am wakeup with the girls. Steve was in South Carolina visiting family so I would watch our 3 year old and 8 month old all day, while trying to hydrate and eat healthy, and then pick him up at the airport at 7:30 pm, trade cars, and head to Fort Worth for the race.
After the car trade, I hurried to packet pickup, just a mile from the hotel where I had gotten a room. Yes, there's no way I'm driving back to Allen an hour away at 4 am after running in the dark for 4 hours. I checked into the room but was just TOO excited to sleep. I dressed, packed up, and headed to the race site at 10 pm-ish.
|Cassie accessorized with glowing items|
|"Camp" set-up before the race|
|Our whole crew. That's a lot of people. Forgive me for not naming everyone!|
|Andy and me|
|Marcie and me|
|Waiting for the 25Kers to start. David, Corina, Megan, and me|
It was time for the race to start, and I didn't really think through my pacing. I thought I'd go with my practiced long run pace, a 12:45 and a walk break at the end of each mile. I didn't account for the fact that it was middle of the night, in the dark with a headlamp, on varied terrain (you jump between decomposed crushed granite trail, sidewalk, packed dirt, grass, and even traverse a basketball court). So stupid pacing plan plus I went out too fast with the excited crowd.
Loop 1: Way Too Fast, even if it had been light out and on regular road. Pace splits for 3.1 miles:
Mile 1 - 11:49
Mile 2 - 12:40
Mile 3 - 12:31
Last 0.17 - 11:31
Loop 2: Still Too Fast, But Finding Groove. Pace splits for 3.1 miles:
Mile 1 - 12:29
Mile 2 - 12:14
Mile 3 - 13:11
Last 0.14 - 10:51
Loop 3: In the Groove. Look at that consistency! Pace splits for 3.1 miles:
Mile 1 - 13:16
Mile 2 - 13:23
Mile 3 - 13:16
Last 0.10 - 10:54
Loop 4: Tired and Hot. I start putting in walk breaks every 1/2 mile instead of every mile. I'm just feeling HOT.
Half-mile pace splits: 12:47, 13:28, 13:16, 13:34, 12:29, 11:34
Loop 5: It All Fell Apart. At this point, I'm feeling tired and so hot. About halfway through this last loop, I start feeling really nauseous. Then disoriented. I've stopped running now, and I'm slow walking. I'm so dizzy and disoriented that I turn off my headlamp (not good when you're kinda night blind so tells you how woozy I was) and hang it around my neck. I feel like I'm staggering. My belly feels sloshy. I know I only have about a mile to a mile and a half left. Finally out of nowhere I feel super sick, pull off a little to the side, and throw up. I start moving again and 20 seconds later, pull off again to throw up again. With that out of my system, I actually feel a little better and walk along the rest of the way. When I start approaching the crowds at the start/finish, I manage a decent little kick to run it in at the tail end. Finish strong? Heh.
Half-mile pace splits: 12:50, 13:56, 15:01, 16:38, 19:19, 19:52
Was I overhydrated (sloshy belly)? Was I hyponatremic (diluted or low electrolyte levels in the blood)? I don't know, but it was the most scared I'd ever been in a race. Could it have just been that I had been up since 7 am, chasing two kids all day, and now it was 3 am.
Later I thought about the reaction from everyone in camp when I told them. I was angry when I left to go to the hotel post-race because I felt like the help I needed wasn't there. When I finished, said I had thrown up twice and sat down, someone asked if I needed anything. I said, "A few Oreos might help." And they said, "Oh, they're over there" and gestured. I said, "Can someone get them for me?" And someone did jump up. This kinda hurt my feelings, especially when going into that last loop I was looking stronger than Erin so Marci ran the last loop with her, and they shot by me mid-loop. But the initial anger I felt in the half day post-race disappeared when I realized that to some point, I think I still acted pretty closed off and stoic about what had happened. I don't think I did a good job communicating how I was feeling and had felt out there those last 1.5 miles. It's my fault because I don't think anyone, until they may be reading it now, knows how absolutely terrified I was.
It was the scariest 1.5 miles ever because I didn't know what would happen if I had collapsed out there, I didn't know how quickly emergency vehicles would get to me since we were on a completely dirt trail area at that section, I was scared about what all this would mean for the marathon I had trained so hard for.
Now I know I need to be more open and honest with that stuff. I think people think I'm generally a strong person, and I think the weakness looks like it's just dripping off me. I need to recognize that difference in perception.
Final time was 3:41:39. I had run a 3:56 and 3:57 at my last two 25Ks, so I was happy with the 15 minute new Personal Record improvement. Of course with proper pacing, I hope in the future to shave off more time.
Official chip timing results below: