Maslow's hierarchy of needs was the pyramid I was remembering. My family's at the bottom right now, where we're focused on basics like food, water, sleep, and excretion (baby's make a lot of dirty diapers). Sophie's still been trying to get back to her birth weight, and I'm having to constantly be on this 3 hour cycle of eat and drink in order to then turn around and pump, so that we're not completely feeding her formula and trying to give Sophie some immune system boost while I've struggled to produce enough milk.
So while all this is going on, those higher pyramid levels of love/belonging, esteem, and self-actualization remain unattainable. My friend Michelle had the perfect comment to sum up the diagram above:
My college wind ensemble director used to reference it when we weren't playing well--as in "how can I expect these college kids to care about producing beautiful music--at the top of the pyramid--when they are worried about eating ramen noodles for dinner."So I want to start putting in some miles (because I can start walking miles now but can't start running again until mid-January) and want to start making running and race plans for the year, but can't as long as I'm at the bottom of the pyramid. I look forward to it, but need to just hunker down and "get by" until I get used to the routines needed to manage two children and still maintain my sanity. Hopefully, the next blog post will be about my return to starting to accumulate some miles again!